Continuing
I’m continuing to surprise myself. When I remember my state of mind 18
months ago, on 17th February 2005 I know that I could never have
predicted myself ending up spending hours a day studying the stock
market. I would have laughed hard and long if someone had explained my
fate to me. The jersey living NYC working part wouldn’t have been so
hard to believe, but becoming immersed in the financial world would have
been.
I think I know myself better having gone through this change. My
occupation is drastically different than a year and a half ago, but I
still have a lot of the same likes and dislikes. The type music I
listen to hasn’t really changed. I still love the outdoors. I still
love to write. There’s also a lot that hasn’t changed.
When the world around me has changed, when I’ve altered the entire
environment of my daily life, I find myself looking inside to find the
familiar. Amidst the changes is when I find out what is constant.
Through the changes I must choose to hold onto what I wish to remian
constant. It is a conscious choice, and not a daily pattern or habit.
Perhaps the world can fully change a person, but I’m not ready for an
overhaul. I like a dynamic existence full of changes and variety, but I
don’t plan to lose myself in it.